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I think my daughter might be the “mean girl.”

Her “report card” last week included a note that suggested we speak to her about sharing and “being nice” to her friends.

She recently told me at dinner that she tries to tell her friends to chew with their mouths closed.

“Nobody listens to me. I tell them over and over and over!!”

This weekend I got to witness some of the judgmental nastiness first-hand.

We went to a birthday party for her classmate at a Jump Zone.

Alma says all the time, “I’m not afraid of anything!” She’s a liar.

She’s terrified of the car wash, haircuts and bouncy houses.

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She refused to go anywhere near any of the bouncy houses, instead lurking nearby and occasionally talking smack about her classmates.

I suggested she say hello to Kendall. I figured they were besties considering Alma recently told she wished her name was “Kendall.”

Alma: “Kendall always talks like a baby.”

Kendall’s mom was standing… right… there.

Me: “Oh, well…er… remember… you’re the oldest girl in your class.” (Why did I have to give birth to her after September 1st, dangit!)

Later, she spots the birthday girl in a purple crown and says, “I want one of those purple crowns.”

Me: “Well, she is the birthday girl. The crown is just for her.”

Alma: “No, I can just get it from her.”

Me: “You can’t just take her crown, Alma.”

Alma: “No, I am going to ask her for it. She will give it to me.”

I have to grab her by the arm and stop her from racing over to a bounce house she won’t go inside where she plans to strong-arm the poor chick with the Elsa wig out of her birthday crown.

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What a jerk.

Her brother is in heaven, climbing the steps like a little diaper-clad monkey, out-bouncing middle schoolers.

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Alma grabs him and asks enthusiastically, “Want to play hide and seek?”

Before even seeing if he’s game, she’s squatting near a bounce house counting. She shouts, “Here I come!” She never even considered the possibility that Huck didn’t want to play.

She ran to find him, threw angry hands on her hips and said with massive attitude, “Where did he go?”

I told her he went back to play inside a bouncy house and she yelled, “I told him to play hide and seek!”

My daughter is a bully.

How did this happen?

Sharing is like the introductory course to being a Corsa.

In our family, skipping the word “please” means you will go without.

Forgetting “thank you” means there’s a chance we will snatch back whatever they just got.

“Can I have a turn, please?” is our mantra.

I don’t even know how to begin a conversation with her about this.

“Alma, you can’t be such a bitch or everyone will hate you.”

“You’re kind of a bossy dick.”

“You’re a few mutilated animals away from becoming a serial killer.”

I don’t want to believe that she is a mean girl and I certainly don’t want to think that I’m somehow the cause of her behavior.

I would like to be the one to put a stop to it, but how do you delicately tell a toddler that she’s basically a 35-pound version of the wicked witch terrorizing the munchkins of daycare Oz?

When she’s being mean to her brother, I occasionally say, “Alma, you’re mean.” Huck always comes to her defense, “Alma’s not mean. She’s nice!”

Is he right? Am I overreacting?

It’s totally my job to keep her in line, but how do I do that when her social interaction is limited to the several hours a day I am NOT around because I’m working?

This same little girl spontaneously hugs me, kisses me, tells me she loves me and even compliments my sandals, clothes and hair… and apparently rules her school with an iron fist.

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I usually try to tie these posts in a pretty bow, but there ain’t no flowery way to wrap up a post about my daughter, the Castro of the Corsa clan.

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I am one awkward social situation away from becoming a bonafide recluse.

I am one lonely, drunken episode of Scandal away from throwing a house party.

I have always been conflicted when it comes to social interaction.

I suffer from debilitating social anxiety, yet I crave the company of others, in particular stimulating conversation.

People often make crappy chit chat with me while I’m heating up food in the break room at work or passing by in the hallway. They make some lame joke, half of the time without my getting the reference. I squeeze out a half-assed chuckle and think, it has to be obvious that I seriously don’t care about what they just said.

I grind my teeth into the obligatory half-smile. The second I am out of their line of sight, the corners of my mouth plummet back to a miserable scowl.

I’m like Lionel Playworld’s nightmare.

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I take resting bitch face to a whole new level.

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It’s not that I hate everyone, just the vast majority of people.

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There was a time when it wasn’t absurd to hear me LOL to something a friend said in the newsroom.

I nearly peed my pants many a time while going over “chat time rundowns” with my old best pal, David.

I could once be heard singing and clapping along to music videos on VH1 on the overnight shift.

That’s the thing, all of the fun was with people at my PREVIOUS place of work and I’ve been at this job a LOOONG time now.

There’s nobody splitting up a pint of Stoli Raz in coffee cups from the trunk of a car before a lame station meeting after a shift.

There’s no Friday night dash to a bar where everyone can dish and bitch about all of the stressful, heinous events of the work week.

There’s no playing, “Who would you rather?” with famous politicians. (Condi Rice or Hillary Clinton?)

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There’s no listing of favorite movies, songs, vending machine snack foods.

There’s no commiserating over Cuban bread.

These are all things that just don’t happen here.

So, it’s entirely possible I am a victim of my surroundings.

I once tried to institute Flashback Friday here, convincing my colleagues to take turns playing the best old school roller rink jams. Instead of developing a reputation for actually being kinda sorta fun, I just inched my way closer to getting demoted.

I now daydream equally of two things:

Vanishing to a tropical island, living off the fish I catch, falling into a coma-like sleep at night, muscles taut from a day of useful work, hard labor building huts and shit.

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Throwing a massive 80’s-themed costume-required house party, the alcohol and fantastic conversation flowing, a never-ending night where everyone is guaranteed to sleep past noon the following day.

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Neither one will ever be more than a fantasy.

Now that I am a mom, I wonder if my kids will suffer from a similar affliction. An aversion to frat parties and girl talk, but a burning desire for friendship and camaraderie.

My kids don’t have friends outside of daycare. I usually avoid even responding to any of the birthday party invites that get stuffed into the bottom of their backpacks.

The truth is, I don’t want to stand around awkwardly with moms who want to talk about the cost of purses, their child’s mysterious maladies or what their husbands do for a living.

I also wonder if I am training my daughter to fear solitude since every time she’s naughty she gets sent to her room alone.

“No!! Not time by myself! With all of these toys, books, and games? You have banished me to the fiery pits of hell, you sweater-clad Satan!”

If nothing else, I am probably destroying them by example.

Mommy and Daddy don’t have friends.

Mommy and Daddy believe that in general, people are selfish, rude, arrogant, insecure, manipulative, dull and basically evil.

Mommy and Daddy consider a social event to be on par with a colonoscopy without anesthesia.

I am one more fake laugh away from becoming a mute.

I am one more cabin-fever day with two toddlers away from tearing it up at the club.


My kid has a stalker.

She just turned 4 and she already has an obsessive little boy following her everywhere at daycare.

She told me his name is Andrew and that even if she is talking to someone else or playing with someone else, he is right there next to her.

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She said it like it was the most annoying thing EVER.

She also told me he was the only friend from school she wanted to invite to her birthday party. (Which is just around the corner at… 10 months away.)

I told her that the next time I drop her off at school or pick her up, she should introduce me to Andrew so I can firmly explain to him that little girls don’t prefer a male shadow. A crappy drawing of a unicorn will do.

I consider this to be a more appropriate response than the ones my husband typically has.

Recently, I dropped Alma off at school at the butt-crack of dawn. The only kids there were the children of the cranky, neanderthal daycare worker, the one with the bad weave who clearly despises my children and therefore me.

Her biggest kid was sitting right by the front door and the second I opened it, he looked up at Alma and said with a sneer, “Oh, it’s her.”

He then proceeded to inform me that Alma spit on him at the playground the previous day.

I asked her if it was true and she ignored me, her facial expression instantly placid and pleased.

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I shrugged at the kid and moved on.

I didn’t feel so bad considering a few moments later this Lionel Tate-sized boy knocked over a tall cubby that could’ve easily crushed a child.

When I told my husband about the “spitting accusation” he said what I was already thinking.

The kid was asking for it. The kid spit on her first or pushed her. Or she was just giving him a good-natured raspberry.

Not my kid.

Alma is batshit crazy, but only brings the vile, unacceptable assaults when provoked.

So, my husband tells Alma that if that boy ever does anything mean to her that he will go to the school, pick him up off the ground, twist his body into a pretzel and drop him on his head.

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A shit-eating grin spreads across Alma’s face and she says, “Okay.”

My husband has always had a tendency to be overprotective. It’s equal parts flattering and awkward.

My old college buddy wanted me to take him to his law school dance, an entirely platonic arrangement and my husband’s response to the Facebook post was, “The only way she’s going is if my swinging cock is going along for the ride.”

I burst out laughing and then considered how to best craft an apology on his behalf to my longtime pal.

It does the beg question, when can you intervene in your child’s personal life?

At her previous daycare, when she was just a wee little thing, Alma was a biter.

She never bit us, was never aggressive toward the dogs, but every couple of days we were “called into the office” because she took a chunk out of some kid’s arm.

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It didn’t take long to figure out that she was only ever biting one girl and that one girl was a bit of a klepto, sometimes trying to literally steal the shoes off Alma’s feet.

The daycare kept pressuring me to teach Alma sign language, like somehow being able to sign the word “more” or “milk” would prevent her from gnashing her teeth at crawling thieves.

They even sent me home with a sign language book.

I had a sign for them too. It only required one finger.

Baby Sign Language

Fast forward a year and Alma was no longer cannibalizing kids and her favorite victim was her new bestie.

The lesson I took away from that: You don’t always need to get involved.

Kids just work shit out themselves.

Now, there’s a chronic biter in Alma’s class now and that’s just unacceptable.

He’s a walking, talking sneak attacker.

He’s probably “challenged.”

So, how do you explain that to your kid?

This was me FAILING:

“Uhhhh, I know you said he bites you all of the time, but he probably takes longer to learn than other kids about what is appropriate and what is not. He’s not as smart. He’s… uhhh… maybe not going to be in your class next year?”

Alma used to stand up at the kitchen table during dinner, bend over and drop it was like it’s hot, saying she was shaking her, “booty butt.”

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It was a skill she learned from a chick at school.

Can’t call the poor kid “ghetto”, but I had to explain to my toddler that some kind of dancing is “nasty.”

I taught her “the twist” instead.

I want to like my kid’s friends.

I want them to be on their level intellectually and emotionally.

I don’t want to have to resist the urge to back-hand the little shitheels that hurt them.

I definitely don’t want my husband to go “dropping kids on their heads” as he is wont to do.

I guess all I can do is raise my own kids and hope for the best.

But, if I meet the stalker guy I might consider the pretzel move.


You might hate dressing up for Halloween.

You might prefer an event where your cup runneth over with booze.

You might want to spend your Saturday night cozying up with a good book.

But, you… had… children.

Now, it’s NOT ABOUT YOU.

We initially had plans to attend a neighbor’s adult Halloween party, a highly-anticipated event in our hood.

Instead, I traded Jello shots for rum and Coke Zero at my mother-in-law’s house.

I planned to be something cute for Halloween, but couldn’t squeeze into the beer girl costume, probably because of all of the beer I’ve consumed trying to cope with parenthood.

Instead, I wore an oversized Anna costume with a wig and felt like a chunky Disney princess with head lice.

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Alma wore her Dolly meets Elsa wig and complained about it the entire time, but refused to take it off.

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The kids consumed just enough candy to become raging assholes for bath time.

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Sunday rolls around and Oktoberfest is just around the corner from our house at the horse track.

Instead we head to Cracker Barrel and a farm in the opposite direction so the kids can enjoy a DRY fall festival.

At the restaurant, a waitress named Cessie is regaling us with stories about how much children love her while mine sit and sulk, refusing to answer any of her questions. (There’s nothing more embarrassing than someone asking your child how their food is and watching them scowl and shovel pancakes into their mouth with complete disregard.)

Can I vent for a moment about the perilous journey in and out of the Cracker Barrel lobby with toddlers? You are fortunate if you make it through there without one of them demanding a toy, grabbing a toy, breaking a toy.. or worse, breaking some super fragile, expensive Christmas tchotchke.

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We make it to the farm and remember why we were reticent about going.

We tried a few years ago when Alma was just a baby.

She could’ve cared less.

We spent a shitload of money in order to check out some miserable bunnies, cranky goats and comatose pigs.

We were offered a free hot-dog and soda, for which you only had to stand in line for about 45 minutes.

Upon arriving, we are greeted by sour-faced, wrinkle-tanned, apathetic volunteers in neon green tee-shirts.

They are haphazardly snatching up kids by their armpits to place them on zombie ponies. (Picture Santa’s Elves at the mall in A Christmas Story)

I overheard one little girl request a specific pony and a volunteer with rotting teeth said, “Honey, I want a Ferrari, but oh well.”

Alma rode her horse like a stunt man from Seabiscuit. I was so proud… and then depressed while calculating the cost of riding lessons.

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The kids got to feed a sketchy llama who kept whipping his ears back in irritation. They probably caught the next Bird Flu, Swine Flu, Goat Flu in the petting zoo.

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Ebola Sheep

I went to get on a choo choo train with the kids because I saw other parents boarding and the volunteer said snarkily, “Only one parent per train car, I thought I made myself clear.”

Awesome. You just go ahead and speed off in that unregulated vehicle with my unbuckled children as you zoom around your horse-shit ridden farm packed with miserable caged animals that don’t belong.

There were lemurs.

On a farm.

And a Zorse.

The highlight for me was plucking individual grains of food out of the dirt for the poor, neglected donkeys who they had penned just outside the petting zoo.

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Hungry Ebola Donkey

Alma was obsessed with the hay stack.

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Huxley got to throw balls at a pumpkin.

The kids has a great time.

I stared longingly at the city block-long line for food and drinks, even though there was no pot of beer at the end of that rainbow.

Back at home, I carved pumpkins with the kids.

All that really means is that my husband ran out for pizza while I carved pumpkins solo with the kids staring at me and repeatedly trying to grab the ridiculously sharp cutting tools.

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I had to yell at my son every few minutes that he was about to amputate his own finger.

Let’s be honest, does anyone actually enjoy digging out pumpkin guts or that pumpkin fart smell that fills the room? Does anyone who doesn’t use a store bought pattern actually end up with a pumpkin they’re satisfied with?

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They rode ponies, they played in hay, they watched someone else do all the hard work for Halloween and what did they get most excited about?

Daddy returning with pizza.

Then, it’s laundry, pre-cleaning for the cleaning lady and battling my daughter to get her to go to bed.

By the time it’s all over, all we want to do is watch a good scary movie on Netflix and even that is impossible.

We pick one… it’s foreign and dubbed over in English.

UNWATCHABLE.

We choose another movie, it’s got subtitles.

I am too tired to try and read while watching a movie.

We end up watching a few minutes of something I don’t even remember and go to bed.

All so I can get up at the butt crack of dawn, brave rush hour traffic, get cut off by some douche in a Mustang, fall asleep during a meeting, drink too much crappy station coffee, get jittery and write about dead people.

Well, it’s not about me anymore.

At least they’re happy.

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I am a horrible cook.

It has only taken me 34 years to figure that out. Over three decades and the straw that broke the camel’s back was dished up by my ungrateful children.

Last night, I made meatloaf, mashed potatoes and corn. The meatloaf is my mama’s recipe which I tweaked with a little Paula Deen diced tomato action.

As always, I serve the family first, then dish myself up a colder, congealing version for myself.

As I am making my plate, I hear my daughter say (before taking a bite) “I don’t like this!”

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My husband says, “Me neither.”

I walk over and give Huck a bite and ask if he likes it. He shakes his head no.

Meatloaf is easy, but it takes a long time to cook so it’s already after 7pm and my family is boycotting my food.

I speed down Hillsborough Avenue, tears streaming down my cheeks to buy a Hot ‘N Ready cheese pizza.

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I return to cheers of, “Mommy’s back with pizza!!”

I guzzle red wine, hold back tears and choke down my food with resentment.

It was not bad meatloaf.

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It had peppers and onions.

That was my great failure, the unholy insult to their digestive tracts.

I have made spaghetti with real homemade meat sauce, chicken quesadillas, pineapple teriyaki chicken, sweet and sour meatballs, fried rice with honey teriyaki chicken, pesto pasta and just about anything else I can think of that children and a carnivore husband will consume and they think it’s ALL CRAP.

The real burn?

I actually think the shit tastes good. Maybe my tastebuds are busted.

It’s not just that the kids are picky or my husband has a profound aversion to vegetables.

They adore HIS cooking. Ropa Vieja, black beans and rice, Picadillo, Bistec Empanizado, beef stew… I could keep going. It’s all Cuban and it’s all amazing to the kids.

I happen to have already OD’d on Cuban food and prefer the more bland white folk meals, preferably meatless.

I think casseroles are cool.

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I think I’m DONE cooking.

Boston Market, baby! Fish sticks and Mac n’ cheese. Hot ‘N Ready and breakfast for dinner. (cereal, because it doesn’t require a frying pan)

So, you’re probably wondering why this is a topic that would make me cry like a little bitch and shrink down into invisibility, diving into a pit of black, sticky despair.

I have come to the realization that I am old.

I am not a skinny, hot young thang anymore. I am all grays, crows feet and stretched out waist bands.

I am Renee Zellweger’s after picture without the plastic surgery.

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I am not a driven, dedicated Journalist.

I am the guy wearing jeans and plaid, guzzling caffeine and just trying to get there on time.

I am not a quirky, acerbic, offbeat, indie chick with great hair.

I am a MOM.

That is my great accomplishment.

Just cause you squeeze them out like a champ (I really was quite fantastic at pregnancy and childbirth) doesn’t mean that you are an ace at being a parent. That’s now apparent.

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I can control my temper, I kick ass at storytime, I am the ultimate caregiver when it comes to boo boos, vomit and general malaise.

But, I grew up thinking that if you can’t cook, you don’t belong in the kitchen and if you don’t belong in the kitchen, you might want to consider choosing a career-driven life over procreation.

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So, here I am. Welcome to my mid-life crisis. I am 34 and suck at everything.

Well, at least everything anyone would ever notice.

I’m a voracious reader, a real bibliophile. So, there’s that.

Good to know I truly excel at something that won’t ever put a dime in the bank or benefit anyone other than myself.

I’m starting a support group: Mom’s Who Can’t Cook, or Do Just About Anything Else Well.

Who’s in?

(p.s. I threw away all of the leftover meatloaf, tupperware and all. It was all I could do to keep from burning it in the backyard.)


My kids don’t do anything half-assed.

If they’re going to fall, they will throw themselves to the ground with wild abandon and shriek as if they’re being pummeled by a giant.

If they get into a toddler scuffle, there’s likely to be eye-gouging and kidney shots.

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My son came down with a severe case of the pukes last week. This was not a “poor baby has a tummy ache and let loose a little white vomit” situation.

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This was gallons of putrid, spoiled milk projectile vomited across beds, couches and clothes. This was five loads of laundry, five baths and google searching for hazmat gear.

This was no sleep for the entire night and the stench trapped deep in my nostrils for the following day.

Like I said, they go all balls out, these kids.

Once the vomiting stops, there’s another two days of explosive diarrhea accompanied by a Gitmo-level hunger strike.

I got to use a vacation day in order to stay home with him because my husband was out of town.

Then on Saturday, I got to spend an entire day with both kids as my husband played golf “for business” in Naples. (I only use the quotes because I envy any job where playing a sport outdoors qualifies as work.)

I thought I was in the clear when I took the kids to the playground in our neighborhood. Alma rode her scooter. Huck rode his tricycle.

Huck was beaming as I pushed him higher and higher on the swing. I must not have realized that glowing grin was hiding the smirk of a secret shit.

I smelled it as soon as I pulled him out of the swing. I went to pull his shorts back to double check and lo-and-behold, there was shit all the way up his back to his hairline.

I found myself so overwhelmed by this bowel movement that I sat stunned for several seconds on the park bench.

Where do you begin? I have one more diaper. No, wait… it just got shit-coated during the diaper change. No change of clothes. What do I do? Thank God there is a trash can.

The end result: Huck riding home topless with a poop-crusted waist-band and undies.

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We don’t just poop in this family. We EXPLODE!

We also don’t just get a cold. We get a stomach flu, that morphs into an ear ache. (That was Huck over the past several days.)

Alma avoids the bug and instead gets Fifth Disease. (Why name a relatively innocuous virus something that sounds like the plague?) She looks like she just got double bitch-slapped and it spread into a face rash. Got some very interesting looks while schlepping her around the Marshalls.

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This was when her cheeks were BETTER.

I catch the stomach flu and end up rushing home from work after being there for about an hour. (Monday)

Everyone is finally starting to recover, so Alma gets pink eye. (Today)

We don’t get sick, we nearly DIE. For DAYS.

As a random aside, I thoroughly enjoy reading a colleague mom’s blog about the Pros and Cons of a Disney cruise. (After writing a blog about the fact that a Disney trip is one long list of CONS.)

My kids don’t just ruin a vacation. They make you decide that you will NEVER VACATION AGAIN.

I try to see the silver lining. The kids really do give everything their all.

I asked Alma to draw me a lion and I got…

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a liger! Score!


Here is a visual representation of storytime with my son last night before bed.

We were reading an alphabet book created by my mother which includes pictures of objects and people my children know well, to help them learn their ABC’s.

For the letter H:

huxley Huck: “Huckey!”

horse running Huck: “Horsey!”

helicopter Huck: “Helicopter!”

hippo Huck: “Tomato!”

Now for the letter R:

rainbow Huck: “Rainbow!”

rabbit Huck: “Rabbit!”

rhinoHuck: “Tomato!”

He also calls this as a “sheep” every single time:

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While this is terribly amusing to me, especially considering he can perfectly name and pronounce “caterpillar” and “centipede”, it’s disturbing when his poor communication skills equal long nights of inexplicable bawling.

I had insomnia last night and fell into a coma-like sleep, so my husband got shafted when Huck kept waking up screaming. He was hysterical, tears streaming down in his face, bouncing in frustration like an epileptic.

Despite a barrage of questions, he couldn’t tell us what was making him so outrageously upset.

Does your ear hurt? Does your mouth hurt? Did you fall out of bed? Does your belly hurt? Do you want milk?

His only response through sobs, “Carson.”

“Do you want water?”

Huck: “Jay Jay.”

It turns out that if Huck doesn’t know the answer to a question, he assumes you are asking him who his best friends at school are.

Hilarious, right? Unless he is suffering from some mysterious and unbearable pain that only an emergency room physician can diagnose.

I guess “Carson” is a cute nickname for a tumor.

Recently, I overheard my son saying something to my husband repeatedly, my husband trying to decipher his mush-speak.

Rolando: “You want paintball?” “You want people?” “You want Paypal?” “You want a peephole?” “You want RuPaul?”

He wanted a pink or purple ball.

He has come up with great alter egos for my brother and sister-in-law. Uncle Matt and Aunt Laura are now Mack and Lola.

I guess it could be worse. Alma used to say “truck” like “cock.”

She was constantly shouting, “Look at the big cock!” “It’s a fire cock!”

I’m guessing to someone, somewhere, that’s a euphemism for an STD.